i guess everything just boils down to one word - JEALOUSY.

nobody really knows how i now feel. nobody. i feel like a child who had committed sinful crimes and punishments are being executed on me right now. i feel like trash - discarded after use. i feel like an idiot - it appeared that i could do nothing to salvage the situation and just sit down there and see everything deteriorate.
谁说时间能够冲淡一切，它只会让你的痛与日俱增
懵懂无知，也是一种幸福
what i really wish for is very simple. i just wanna return to those happy days instead of now when u treated as if i was absent. if you are reading it now and u think it is u. YES. e person i'm referring to is YOU.

class video filming finally done! yay! and i was e camerman. hahas. see how important i am now. without me e class video would not be filmed. wahaha. ok. i'm getting bhb here. -.=
so our theme was science fiction and we had to stick to this theme. X-men 3! that was e concept. have some of us dressed up as mutants and act!
van_-_storm
merv_-_angel
zen kyn_-_wolverine
meryl_-_jean
lim kai_-_cyclops
zi hui_-_teacher
ai kuen_-_principal
kevin_-_fellow being bullied
si and mei hui_-_bullies
form cher_-_prof L
it was quite fun lah. lol. to be able to participate in this class thingy. hope ours would get selected to be played at the graduation tea!



scary woman. LOL. jkjk





wings on the ass! HAHA



what was that expression for.... nvrm. just focus on the accessories on him.



what a gr8 sacrifice for him...





this is. of cox. our form teacher. who apparently looked like he's gonna fall asleep anytime during this photo shoot.

apparently e song that i have uploaded onto my blog lags it. so i'm gonna remove it....
most sundays = family day. so there i was playing at pasir ris beach! hahas. here are the pictures...
apparently i was instructed to take off er-jie solo picx. cux she had that camera shy look on the face so it didnt turn out quite nice for her. LOL









see. we brush our teeth ok? LOL



us. cousins. =D



all of us! hahas. =D
wad a pity for e last picx e night mode wasnt on. if not i 'd be clearer. >_<
but i had quite a good time! yay!

so. i was browsing through the internet and i found these meaningful 文字 so i thought of sharing it on my blog. hope u like it. (:

1
茫茫人海中，你能找到几个跟你是契合的呢？
个性、相貌、生活、谈吐…
我们都不时的在每一次的见面中，
为着自己的幸福在打量别人？

呵～好笑的是，对方也如此的对待自己。
100分…100分的人到底跑到哪里去了？
我们都一直在寻找自己的100分对象，
那我又有几分可以配得上人家？

在无欲无求的生活中，或许就能遇上你的另一伴。

可是她不是100分，可能她不能陪你走到尽头，
但是在这段岁月中，也就是你找到自己的。


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还没得到的东西，你会很渴望能得到；
但是当你得到了之后，你又会觉得没有乐趣了；
当你觉得没有乐趣了，你就会选择放弃；
但当你放弃后，你又会觉得很可惜。
唉…人生就是那么矛盾啦！

而人生有很多东西，是失去了后才知道自己曾经拥有！
但是，失去了的东西，可能这一生再也得不回了。
所以我在这，希望你千万别轻易放弃一段感情。
选择放弃前请深深地考虑一便！

如果今天发生了很多不如意的事情，请别伤心难过。
虽然每一个人的一生中都不会有很多的“一年”
但是，每个人的一生中有很多的“一天”！
相信我吧！明天会更好，把今天不如意的事情都给遗忘，
因为明天又是新的一天了！而天无绝人之路啊…别担心吧！
即使这世界已经没有一样东西是属于你的，你也别担心，因为你还有我这个好友！

i'm dead bored now. argh.

aniwae yesterdae went to BANANA's house to kill our boredom. borrowed ju-on and fun with dick and jane to watch. seriously i should have rented the wig cux i dunt really understand ju-on's storyline and it kinda left me hanging mid-air with no inkling of wth's going on. hahahas. and apparently i had burnt nuggets and fries for lunch. but i didnt mind that lah cux i was dead hungry then. THANKS =D played cards games and u noe what? i've improved!!!! yay! i getting better and hopefully i can rip off banana's title of so called the best player of dai di. lalala.

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最近过得不是很好。不要问我为什么。
fcuking get me out of here
好想逃到远远的。
i need a break

aniwae. all my cousins and relatives came to my house todae. its been so long since everyone has got tgt and make lotsa noise? especially for my nephew. so has been screaming all the way since after dinner. hahas.

here's a picture of him. hmm. quite cute right. hahas. of cox lah. my nephew leh.



meet one of my cousins. who apparently wants to get a nice shot. this is i suppose e 4th take? hahas.



on to sat. its just a walk-around singapore day i guess. had dimsum lunch at harbour city restaurant. hmm since long i've been to restaurant to eat dimsum le lah. then had thai food at night at sembawang. pretty nothing much lah just that i had sumptuous food e whole dae. wahaha.

on to fri. YES! i have finally bought e ADIDAS superstar shoe! YAY! it cost me 97 bucks but its worth it. although i'm kinda considered broke now and i'm going out tmr? lol. heck care lah. me and merv spent about 200 bucks in all on shoes and bag at jurong point. and i tell u. i am not at least heartache-d cux i'm so bloody freaking happy that i bought e shoe, which apparently look better than merv's. LALALA. so proud of myself....

this week was VERY dramatic. Lots of thoughts went through my mind. wo ling3 wu4 le a lot. hahas

aniwae was at causeway point with merv todae to but present and i totally fell in LOVE with this shoe. adidas here i come.... but its arnd $95 leh. i'd be broke......



nice right.

最近发生太多事了。也不知从何开始。生命是一袭华美的袍，爬满了蚤子。我的烦恼就像蚤子般咬啮，令我浑身不适。我的心仿佛被绳子捆绑着，怎么解也解不开。好乱啊！救我！

我的心为何会涌起一股莫名的悲伤？莫非… 不可能。是我想太多了。

WOOHOO! had such a great time at jasmine's house todae! her bro's celebrating his 3rd bdae so we were invited to go too. went to meet merv and van at lot 1 at abt 6 plus liddat. she brought her younger brother along too. hmm reminds me of my cousin. hahas. we were kept in her mum's office so as not to interfere with their family affairs and we made hell lotsa noise inside! LOL. began with us cheating pple on MSN. i shall not mention names who fell into out trap! then i went watching bleach and the two of them playing chess. i have practically no idea how to play but what i noe was that merv sucks at playing it.

merv's depressed look after he LOST. HAHA



blue's van.
merv's white.




after which we took out cards to play. wahaha heard of asshole dai di? omg it was so fun. and we played another game. lets just call it face. e gals were screaming in e room and we all ended up laughing like nobody's business. laugh till my medulla oblongata was hurting i guess. lol. we're just a bunch of crazy dudes. =D

woohoo! todae's like a movie day for me. hahas. i have no remedials todae! so me jas van went to merv house. both e gals brought quite a number of DVDs - some of which were rented. MEET THE FOCKERS. i noe this movie has made its appearence quite some time ago. but i've only managed to watch it todae. hahas. aniwae its damn funny. made me laugh like siao. next up was initially THE FOG. i wanted to scare myself out of my wits so decided to watch horror movies. but that was rather boring so we changed it to THE OTHERS. its a nice story with an interesting twist at the end. and i watched X-men at night on 5. what a day. hahas.

so. todae lesson end at 10 only! phew. we only had 2 hours of biology. and then after which went to causeway point to watch x-men 3. i guess its pretty worthwhile watching it. actions and fights all over e movie. and jean is damn tok kong lah. class 5. wow. i was famished so headed to MOS burger for lunch. we were quite a bunch of crazy dudes and took lotsa KUKU photographs. but i was THREATENED not to post e damn FUNNY and GUAI LAN ones. well being a nice being i shall respect them. LOL



Lesbian in action....



i dunt wanna care u...



too bad u cant get to see those nicer ones!